it has been a hectic recess week. get to enjoy it, and thus it is making me super stress now with all the pressing issues that are supposed to be done in recess week, like the assignments, and the revising of lectures... i hope i did not regret doing it. it seems bad to be saying this but i sacrifice my recess week for my friends and work, so as a result i din do my work. BUT, in the other fact, i am the one procrastinating about work and kept thinking that i have ample time since i only got 1 mid terms, neglecting the fact that i have quizzes, assignments, and project deadlines to fulfill. haiz. and i have this unknown stress in me that i really wanted to score damn badly for CM and LSM since they are stuff that i know before, and understand more. i hope this unknown stress wont kill me.
on the other note, did not manage to get the tickets for smtown. not that i am lyk "sui bian" in it, but i dont no really have the financial power to cope with all my wants. but when i wanted to get it damn badly, the system just screws up everything and i cant do anything about it. it is not my money,so i have be really careful with it. and i have to call them to chase my money if they dont return. what bad service is this man seriously. i know it is a once in a lifetime experience, and it might not have any more chances with them coming, but with all the output i am currently having, it is having a toll on me. it might be best to save the money instead.dilemma. i would go if i could get the tix .
sometimes i just dont lyk your reactions to it. i am okay with it because i dont have the financial ability that you have, i dont have the allowance that you have. the stuff that u can afford i have to work for it. so dont judge me. i bet u are thinking" i doubt she will go, she lyk shui bian in it" but do you think it is my fault? and u can buy the tix but when we wanna go out and eat tgt u have to stick with budget meal. i just dont lyk the way u say it. prolly we are really drifting a p a r t and i have no idea how to deal with it, too many issues to look into, so many issues in hand to think of this trivial issue. i think i have been very accommodating to everyone, but i am not going to do that anymore. at least i have much more experiences in working than you, and not that i am proud of it, but i think people have to go to the outside world to earn valuable experiences that you cant learn in school and to earn money that u can spend happily on.
omg seriously ranting about everything. this is what studying does to you, making u think of alot of stuff and feeling sad for yourself, and hoping no one reads this nonsense which will create more cracks to the current situation.
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