deep thoughts late at night

i think my patience have a limit. when it cant it really bursts. 

maybe it is really joking, but i am seriously hurt by it. and got pretty pissed with it.

sometimes this week, then i realise that actually my this group of friends are not very easy to talk to?

we seemed to be super confined with our thoughts.

and i have been talking about some personal stuff to people that are are not my close friends at all.

omg. i tell them what i think, which i dont even tell my closest friends.

i donno if i have feelings for you? but i find it so much easier to talk to you. one step at a time, hopefully u can be one of the good friends that i can talk to about stuff

emotional yet agin.

Sometimes, little things can take you by surprise.

I have grown up. mentally and physically.

learnt to realized that the world is not as simple as you think, neither people are divided into 2 types, good or bad.

people have emotions, behavior too. impossible to cater to everyone.

my smile on my face sometimes I feel is pretty fake.

"i don't judge people" so whatever your actions is, i cannot judge, i cannot have my own views?

i realized i have became more emotional, maybe because things have changed, and it is not what you planned.

various scenarios passed through my minds late in the night.

learning to be a nice person is so difficult. 

i am not easy to bully.

when things dont go my way, i have the reason to whine, be sad and cry, because, I am human too.

in a slightly cheerful tone, birthday in around 2months time~

and no, i am not going to have a birthday party. i dont want to be a nice person, and ask everyone again.

i am not someone good with words. sometimes what i say does not reflect what i mean. limited vocabulary in my brain.