i really want to get away

sometimes impressions do change. sometimes, a bad first impression should not haunt you, as it will cloud your vision to the actual personality. similarly, a good impression doesn't mean that the actual personality is good. i finally understand this, and i tell myself, not to judge people so easily until i know them better.


sometimes we all think that guys are easy to understand, like an open book. but is so not true.

 it could be seen that they are actually quite despo to look for girls?

how can they just end a relationship and get into another one so fast?how can they just show their affection to their GF without thinking about their exs? how can they act in a way that is soooo irritating?

now i understand the importance of getting to know the guy first before plunging into the river of love, as it seems to me that girls will always be the victim when a relationship fell through.

probably because of so many different types of relationship cases around me that kind of made me fear of relationships?despite wanting a boyfriend soooo badly, the thought of someone loving you, hear your stories, is painted so nice in my mind. but actual scenanrio is super different?how am i suppose to know if the guy is suitable for me? how can i know that he is the one? 

in this case i sound pretty despo for myself. However, imaginations can run wild though, since they are kept in my brain. 

step-by-step, hoping that i will meet one that i am willing to take the risk of love, and experience the power of love~

BIE YEAR 2 SEM 2 WEEK 1

finally settled with my module stuff and i got 6 modules! really challenging myself to the max.

everytime i see my timetable, i could only sigh. but. i have to keep telling myself that "i could do this, i wanted this, and i wont regret it" and i seriously hope that i could still say this after week 7, or even before finals.

but, it seems really taxing. to an extent that i am just going to do my own way. it is tough to plan timetables with friends. really. and i think i am just going to stick to what i have planned.

sometimes, i get really moody at night, thinking about the past actions that i have done in the day.

i cared too much about other peoples' feelings that i am not showing my feelings. and no one knows it. this is bad as people may think that i am easy to bully. but i am not. okay. 

and even though i want to say i dont care, i really care. it hurts actually, to see that someone that matters to you the most, and thought that u mattered to her as well, does not really matter your feelings. since you dont really cared about our feelings, i dont care about hurting your feelings either. prolly this is what people called xiao xin yan, but i really dont know how i should react. and it hurts to see that you are not as important as you thought in her life. things change, people change, priorities change.

SO A NEW YEAR HAS JUST BEGUN

i survived 2012 in korea, with a snowy weather:D 

i have been sooooo busy that i have severely neglected this blog for a few months?let me do a simple recap of what i did in 2012:

1. travelling: korea, taiwan! 

superb experience, and i cant wait to go again :D with friends or family it is also fine. 

2. chose bioengineering as my major, so far no regrets yet and i hope i will never regret.

3.have a really hectic timetable for sem 2 but i survived!

4. went for oweek and make alot of new friends whom will be my besties for the university life.

resolutions for 2013:

1. challenge myself and take 6 mods for each semester!

2. really pull up my cap so i can at least get a 3rd class honors.

3.spend more time with family

4.save up for travelling with friends!

5.explore more things

6.take really good care of myself :D

it seems vague but yeah, this are my major resolutions for this year, and hoping i could fulfill to all of them :D