i really want to get away

sometimes impressions do change. sometimes, a bad first impression should not haunt you, as it will cloud your vision to the actual personality. similarly, a good impression doesn't mean that the actual personality is good. i finally understand this, and i tell myself, not to judge people so easily until i know them better.


sometimes we all think that guys are easy to understand, like an open book. but is so not true.

 it could be seen that they are actually quite despo to look for girls?

how can they just end a relationship and get into another one so fast?how can they just show their affection to their GF without thinking about their exs? how can they act in a way that is soooo irritating?

now i understand the importance of getting to know the guy first before plunging into the river of love, as it seems to me that girls will always be the victim when a relationship fell through.

probably because of so many different types of relationship cases around me that kind of made me fear of relationships?despite wanting a boyfriend soooo badly, the thought of someone loving you, hear your stories, is painted so nice in my mind. but actual scenanrio is super different?how am i suppose to know if the guy is suitable for me? how can i know that he is the one? 

in this case i sound pretty despo for myself. However, imaginations can run wild though, since they are kept in my brain. 

step-by-step, hoping that i will meet one that i am willing to take the risk of love, and experience the power of love~