Monday, 17 June 2013

IT IS THE HOLIDAYS

Life was mundane. Office-> home->videos->sleep this cycle continues everyday.

Not that I was complaining, or I am really complaining. But this kind of lifestyle is so not me.
I have been so looking forward to office life but I was seriously disappointed? Maybe because I am a temporary staff, so I don’t have nothing impt to do. But my job is really to slack to an extent that I feel bad taking the pay since my job is just asset taking. And technically spaking, if all the in charge of different departments cooperate and help me, it could BE done within 2 weeks? But because everyone is busy with their own stuff I am left there slacking. Bad idea. I rather be retail assistant whereby i can like slack openly, whereas in office when people are busy typing stuff I feel bad to keep using my itouch to read books. So to pay me thousand bucks for this simple asset taking is just weird. Not like I know where the assets were in the first place, I still have to look for the relevant person to help me. so technically speaking I am useless there la. Therefore, I cant wait to end my job in like 8 days, then look for some events job so that I can survive the remaining one month with something to do rather that slacking at home.

After working in an office I begin wondering, what do I want to do with my life? What job am I going to look for? Something related to what I am studying? Or totally irrelevant stuff? Suddenly I realized my jobscope is not that broad as I thought. Basically I don’t think office job requires engineers though. But if I do retail, what type of retail am I looking at? Haiz. I think I really need to start planning my future if not I really don’t know what will I be doing after graduation.

Results were out. It was good at least for me, as I thought this semester is the worse semester I have ever been though and I still managed to pull up my CAP, despite not working very hard for it. I really rushed through my studies for the last week so I really thought I might fail a few modules. But phew. really lucky. This time round I realized the need to really start revising from the start and not wait till the end, if not the last week to study is the most torturous. And there is one more thing I really have to admit. The number of hours put in does not equate to the grade you want to get. But this doesn’t mean that you don’t study. At least for my case, I can’t stop studying even though I might have already finish the revision as I know I will confirm forget some details here and there. And my brain is not really fast enough to process the question plus to formulate answer. 

Suddenly I regretted not holding slumber party for my birthday. I regretted not doing something special for my birthday. I regretted not having parties, I regretted not booking a hotel room and ask a few close friends over for celebration. All these regrets, got stronger and stronger when I saw what my friends did for their bday, or what their friends’ friends did for their bdays. What about mine? I am really thankful for my uni friends(I don’t know say how many times already), but I am pretty upset with my secondary school friends. Not too sure abt jc friends though, since we are not close to begin with haiz.

Relationships. I begin to think a lot about it. The feeling of liking someone, the feeling of being liked by someone. Read too much love stories already but I really don’t get sick of it I don’t know why. I really hope that the someone who like me will be like the guys in the stories. Really love you and care for you, and really put you in the first place. But that is in fiction world, I highly doubt I can find someone like that. The urge of finding a boyfriend is so strong and it gets stronger when I see the collage of my friend’s sister engagement process. Omg it is super sweet! When will that happen to me?haha. don’t think to much I guess. If it is here it will be here! Waiting for my prince charming…


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